Don't be so hard on your self.
We all have days where we would like to tell the world ,our loved ones, and even our children, to go for themselves and leave me alone.
Strong people who know you, know it's only a bad day in some cases a bad couple weeks. We will forgive and move on!
If we can come back when all is calm and talk about it, then it all is forgiven.
You have made it through the hard stuff. Sit back and catch your breath..
Have beer on me :-)