For anyone who doesn't know me, I'm part of a group of computer programmers (consultants) who bounce around this country like balls on a pool table after a good break.
I've been doing it for almost a decade now.
We're all characters, and we're all trapped in the whirlwind that comes with this addiction. We can't get out.
The rewards are pure adrenaline with its builtin fear of failure.
The ground is no longer solid. I think, for me, I do it to validate myself and my existence.
We intrude into other peoples lives, people who have stability.
Their ground is stable, but most don't realize it, even though they've been doing the same thing for so many years.
Its rare that I have pause to reflect, but I have time right now.
In two days, we'll be entering new states, meeting new people and leaving the familiar behind. Everything will be different.
The game rules will change and failure is never an option.
Herein lies my heart. I'll never be alone. I'll never be bored. Those are perhaps, my biggest fears.
I'm home now, where over 47 people have lived over the past 26 years.
All of them passed through after a couple of months. Many are dead. Most are somewhere out there.
I see their faces, hear their voices. Its in this place, they'll live as long as I do.
I think these people were all great and it's been a pleasure to be their host.