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Friday, April 30, 2004 at 09:05:05 (PDT) <Jim Cutlar>
I finally got my mop trimmed. It's always a shock going from the long haired 70's throwback look, to the 2000's business cut. I'm in SHOCK!

Thursday, April 29, 2004 at 23:00:00 (PDT) <Jim Cutlar>
Saw "The Passion of Christ". The movie was all subtitled, so, dyslexics, look out, you'd have a tough time with this show. Now, I love horror movies, mainly because I know nothing on this planet will never turn into a bat or a wolf, and nobody has ever spun their head around while puking green, but this movie was just gross. It was about a narcissistic megalomaniac being tortured by political sadists. The grossest part was when a Roman soldier pulled his whip off of Christ's back, and you could see meat flying. If the purpose of movie making is to entertain by exciting emotion, Mel Gibson accomplished that, I felt sickened.

Tuesday, April 27, 2004 at 15:40:52 (PDT) <Jim Cutlar>
Made Kielbasa,Eggs,Onions,Peppers and Potatoes for breakfast with tomato toast. Yum! Robert, Joy and David came over for a couple of hours. Joy's looking so good (preggers). Talked to Jennifer and Dustin with a tear in my eyes, told them we wanted to see them so much, but Grandma's still stomping her feet (being the cruel person she is).

Monday, April 27, 2004 at 09:46:41 (PDT) <Jim Cutlar>
Still sore from Saturday's fiasco. I shared dreams with Becky about becoming campground hosts, she likes the idea. I may shoot for it. Talked to Sonny, he's always full of surprises, but that is a whole nutha story. Ricco came over, we shared lots of laughs. Went to the store for everything needed to make fruit smoothies. YUM!

Sunday, April 25, 2004 at 15:18:25 (PDT) <Jim Cutlar>
All sore today from moving and other things. We had corned beef hash and eggs for breakfast, and TV's been excellent!

Saturday, April 24, 2004 at 15:16:46 (PDT) <Jim Cutlar>
Today'syardsale was a success. We made $280 and cleared this place out nicely. Everything went well except for J having a seizure. That sucked. Stupid hangovers. Becky and I went over to Patti's, Tom's, Chuck's, and Sharon's and I bought pizza. It turned out to be an okay day.

Saturday, April 24, 2004 at 01:11:47 (PDT) <Jim Cutlar>
Sorry to hear about Jerry Newberrys "Beeper" dying. That cute little must have been 20 years old. Wow.

Saturday, April 24, 2004 at 01:10:42 (PDT) <Jim Cutlar>
Well, I moved my blog...haha. I suppose I was saying some pretty odd things on it.
But besides that, I pretty much have half of my life documented to the day already.
And what can I say, I've had pretty much and odd life.

Friday, April 23, 2004 at 16:52:51 (PDT) <Jim Cutlar>
Ahhh...already sold a DVD player and an entertainment center, and the yard sale hasn't even started.

Friday, April 23, 2004 at 10:05:34 (PDT) <Jim Cutlar>
We'll do well, no matter what we do when we're together...ya sweet thang you!

Friday, April 23, 2004 at 10:02:51 (PDT) <becky>
Good Morning my love...It look's like a beautiful day today. I hope we do well on the Yard Sale this weekend. It will be lot's of fun!!!:). I plan to write a letter to Renee today. I love you kisses Becky

Friday, April 23, 2004 at 09:46:52 (PDT) <Jim Cutlar>
Oh, by the way...for anybody that reads this blog, please note it's a log/chat room kind of thing. Life is like a soap opera of sorts. My only hope is that the entries entertain. Whether it's depressing, enlightening, or laughable, it's just a statement of life while we pass through it. I invite anybody to make entries in it. This site is in no way for profit, it's not advertised, and you won't find it from a search engine, so it's safe.

Friday, April 23, 2004 at 09:40:15 (PDT) <Jim Cutlar>
Prepping up for a BIG YARD SALE This weekend only!, so if anyone out there wants any furniture, 007 type toys, camera's or computer stuff, stop on by! You can't miss the signs!

Friday, April 23, 2004 at 09:36:30 (PDT) <Jim Cutlar>
My last interview went excellent!!! But, the company in Dallas hired a local guy.
Got another interview hopefully today, this time in Florida. Wish me good luck!

Sunday, April 18, 2004 at 19:41:30 (PDT) <Jim Cutlar>
Okay...now think about this....4 days of SEX...think about that...man, if any guy on this planet ever experienced that...he's lying!!! Anyway, that's why I've been out of the picture.

Friday, April 16, 2004 at 04:20:31 (PDT) <Jim Cutlar>
You know you might be a has been when...people don't reply to your emails, interviews don't get responses, and in a five minute conversation you let yourself get talked down from making $140,000 to $70,000 a year. It feels lonely here at the bottom.

Thursday, April 15, 2004 at 12:18:23 (PDT) <Jim Cutlar>
Well, I'm here...hungover. Once again I earned it. MY HEAD FEELS LIKE IT'S SPLITTING. I hit 4 deuces last night ($200). Now, I don't gamble that much, but I figure the odds of getting 4 deuces on a Deuces Wild Machine are about 1,000,000,000,000,000 to 1. So, I got lucky. Such is life. :)

Thursday, April 15, 2004 at 08:41:15 (PDT) <Jim Cutlar>
Now that was sweet. Becky I love you with all of my heart. Don't be sorry about anything. Code everything in its own color and file it away.

Thursday, April 15, 2004 at 08:35:41 (PDT) <becky>
Hey Babe Sorry about this mornigng. I care for you very much. You are most important to me. Where ever you go I will be with you. I hope I haven't disappointed you for loseing my job? I know thing's will work out for us. I love you very very much. Hugs & Kisses Becky

Wednesday, April 14, 2004 at 12:13:09 (PDT) <Jim Cutlar>
As self interest goes, I talked to my CPA today, and I had him file an extension on 2004 taxes. He said he was going away after April 15th...for about a week. As self interest goes, with me focused on my own world and all, I didn't even offer him the courteousy of asking him where he's going. I suck! He's going to Hawaii! Yahoo! Ocean temp of 82 degrees...blue skys now...hopefully, it'll be the best time of his life. I wish Phil Adams the best of times.

Wednesday, April 14, 2004 at 10:18:53 (PDT) <Jim Cutlar>
I keep a diary and this BLOG (notes) for a good reason. I like to read it and laugh about down times and up times. Either way, it's like talking to a Guru. I get advice on things. And I can review the results of that advice! It's so much better than a psychic hotline. I've lived with the results. :)

Wednesday, April 14, 2004 at 10:14:36 (PDT) <Jim Cutlar>
Another OH BOY just occurred to me. This website will outlive me.

Wednesday, April 14, 2004 at 09:43:11 (PDT) <Jim Cutlar>
Oh boy...man, did I ever pick a bad night to drink. Hung over (like a dumbass). I just got off of a phone interview. I just woke up. I forgot my name, where I am. I just asked Becky what that thing sticking out of the door is...she said, Jim, it's a door knob. jeese oh pete (whatever that means). Sometimes I'm dumber than a bag of self tapping screws.

Tuesday, April 13, 2004 at 17:13:53 (PDT) <Jim Cutlar>
OK..somebody's saying things about me on the internet...MUST BE!!!
I keep getting Emails for Viagra, making my pecker 3 inches longer, growing back my hair, removing ear and nose hair, pharmaceuticals...and just lately, eliminating TOENAIL FUNGUS!!!
#1 - I don't want to look like a horney ape.
#2 - If I had Toenail Fungus, I'd go to the Pharmacy, not to my email browser.
Jeese!!! Who's talking about me...fess up!!!

Tuesday, April 13, 2004 at 11:40:02 (PDT) <Jim Cutlar>
As it turns out, I never made it to Bruce's viewing. Instead, I swung by Missy's house. Somehow, that just seemed much more important. I had a great time...but I had to pick up Becky from the Blue Ox at 8pm. Blue Ox let Becky go today. Becky's feelings were crushed.
I typed up a Letter of Appreciation for Becky this morning - to thank everyone there for their kindness and support.
In this town, you never burn your bridges. You always smile, and walk away. With any luck, the people she met there will help her find her next job.
At any rate, being nice in Las Vegas always pays off.

Monday, April 12, 2004 at 16:57:15 (PDT) <Jim Cutlar>
I'm headed to Bruce's viewing. It's sad to me that people treat death with mourning, instead of with celebration for that persons life. The Druid's Halloween (no, it's not a Christian holiday, and neither is Easter), the Mexican "Dia de los Muertos" --Day of the Dead, and so many other cultures celebrate the life and death as a secular event, Some believe death is not related to any religion, it is instead, related to life on this planet. (I kind of like the Druids way of thinking).
But if people actually believed the dead have gone to a better place...shouldn't they be celebrating...or is the crying and mourning a selfish act?

Monday, April 12, 2004 at 08:55:36 (PDT) <Jim Cutlar>
Becky, Patty and I played Bingo at Sam's Town. WE DIDN'T WIN! YEAH!
I figure if I go in wishing I lose instead of win, I'll be elated everytime! It works!
Bruces viewing is today from 12p-7p at Palm Mortuary on Main St.

Sunday, April 11, 2004 at 14:37:38 (PDT) <Jim Cutlar>
Life's a hoot. I picked up a computer hutch and a Entertainment Center the other day for $30. The retail value is $250, so I spent a couple of hours refurbishing it. The hutch is already sold!!!
In other news, I'm going to let Becky drive to work from now on (of course, I'll be riding shotgun). This truck is my last vehicle, so, wish me luck! I guess when Becky passes her driving test, I'll need to spring for another car.
If anyone out there has a good deal on a vehicle, EMail me.
Guess I'll get a birthday present when I'm sixty. haha. I bought a tent for myself this year, and at this rate, it'll be my next home! March and April will be my all time high for expenditures. But on the other hand, I love camping...I wanna go right now. I guess if that's the worst that can happen, GREAT!
I just wish Rob had looked at life the way I do.Merrily merrily merrily, life is but a breeze! *smiles*

Sunday, April 11, 2004 at 05:53:10 (PDT) <Jim Cutlar>
Nasty 2001 statistics: US population 280,000,000. Leading causes of death 24,000,000 : Heart 7,000,000; Cancer 5,500,000; Stroke 163,000; Low Respiratory 123,000; Accidents 101,000; Diabetes 71,000; Pneumonia 62,000; Alzeimers 54,000; Kidneys 39,000; Infections/Bacteria 32,000; Suicide 30,000; Liver 10,000; Homicide 7,000.
Suicides stats 30k: whites 28k, male 25k, handguns 18k. New Mexico/Montana/Nevada have the highest suicide rates per capita (2 out of every 10,000 people). These statistics correlate to my last note (hope and gambling).

Sunday, April 11, 2004 at 04:52:41 (PDT) <Jim Cutlar>
Vegas newbees...They always amaze me with their systems, terminology, and energy. Las Vegas owes its livelyhood to them. Vegas flourishes during a recession. Why? Because, what Vegas sells isn't so much the entertainment, gambling or hospitality. What Vegas sells is HOPE! This gambling mecca offers the chance for an anybody to become a somebody. During depressed times, Vegas offers a fair chance at something better. Without winners this town would be doomed. So, the next time you see a billboard showing Billy Bob with his $1,000,000 jackpot from the Rock Bottom Casino, think about what it's really saying about you, that is, if you want to be like him.

Saturday, April 10, 2004 at 13:04:52 (PDT) <Jim Cutlar>

In memory of Bruce McCann - October 25, 1950 to April 6, 2004.
Bruce and I were Rob Allred's (deceased 12/30/2003) best friends. We didn't hang out much, but Bruce was a very good person. He seemed to live his life in solitude, only letting a few select people in. And I hope, in his mansion of glory on the other side, Bruce will let me in with open arms. Bruce had a very distinct personality and he will be missed.

Friday, April 09, 2004 at 01:47:17 (PDT) <Jim Cutlar>
I deleted some of my previous notes. I said some things about Becky's Mom and brother. I apologize for saying bad things about these two people. I should only say good things about other people. I should remain quiet about the bad, and evil deeds of others...because bad deeds are contagious, and evil thrives on exposure.

Thursday, April 08, 2004 at 17:52:27 (PDT) <Jim Cutlar>
Ahhhh..Becky just woke up...She slept 7 hours, and I slept 2. Her first night on graveyard was pretty slow. I went by and visited around 5am and about fell asleep myself! Tonight's her last graveyard shift. Yahoo!

Thursday, April 08, 2004 at 02:50:36 (PDT) <Jim Cutlar>
I've been up all night, waiting for Becky to get off at the Blue Ox. I need to air some things.
Is life a test?
Of course it is. If mankind doesn't fit in with nature, our species will become extinct. Plain and simple.
About on Heaven and Hell
Rob once told me that I'm a good man, but I'm going to Hell.
I told Rob I've never stole, I've never killed or hurt any animal or person, and I don't believe in Hell.
But if I had my choice between Heaven and Hell, I would choose to go to Hell, because Hell is where good people could do the most good.
About being saved by the Church
If confession in Church gets us into Heaven, everyone should poison themselves just before being reborn/saved. Since suicide is a sin, it would be forgiven. We'd lock in Heaven before having a chance to sin again.
The Easter Bunny was invented by the Devil
I researched Easter. Easter was the holiday to honor the Pagan God Estra, long before Jesus. Estra was the God of new life - the vernal-equinox (spring)...her symbols were the hare and the egg.

Wednesday, April 07, 2004 at 08:03:03 (PDT) <Jim Cutlar>
Well, this day has started off sucky and I've been up 10 minutes. Already arguing. My step brother want's me to buy some hedge trimmers so he can trim my trees some more. I own a chain saw, my neighbors have hedge trimmers...so why the hell would I buy something like that when I'm unemployed. He implied I'm cheap. My home is a strange place to live right now. He also told me I told him not to dig up these palm trees growing everywhere in my back yard. I'm thinking WHAT! You think I said what! So, now, I'm recording conversations. I love my step-brother, but I hate arguing.

Monday, April 05, 2004 at 19:18:07 (PDT) <Jim Cutlar>
Another frustrating day. Washed clothes...was making lunch when Becky got called in an hour early...lunch was scrapped. Came home with 3 goals for today...finish the breakfast nook, put my laptop back together and research some jobs. NONE GOT DONE! Arguments and interuptions went on all day long. I did talk to Ida for about 1 hour today and that made my day. I think I'm totally losing focus...

Sunday, April 04, 2004 at 07:14:35 (PDT) <Jim Cutlar>
It's Daylight Saving Time, not Daylight Savings Time...which sounds like a sale that ends when the sun comes up. Ahhhhh, Benjamin Franklins legacy to the world has kicked in. Arizona, Hawaii, and Indiana are the only states to don't honor DST. In fact, Indiana honors three time zones. So, whatever you think about DST, be glad your not a Hoosier!

Sunday, April 04, 2004 at 07:08:00 (PDT) <Jim Cutlar>
Becky's second day at Blue Ox was a success! She made good tips but she busted ass for them. After her 9 hour day, we went to Joe's Crab Shack and promptly spent her tips. She served 20 meals and we ate just one.

Friday, April 02, 2004 at 20:39:27 (PST) <Jim Cutlar>
Becky worked today from 8am to 2pm, then 5pm to 8pm. I got up this morning at 7am. Made coffee, took Becky to work, bought groceries, this that and the other happened and another day has shot to hell! Such is the life...I love it!

Friday, April 02, 2004 at 00:12:53 (PST) <Jim Cutlar>
Becky starts at the Blue Ox tommorrow! Yea! However, we had to get Health and Tam cards today. The Health District clerk said Becky needed an unlaminated Social Security card, so we went (at 80mph) to the SS Dept which took an hour. Then we came back (at 80mph). While we were there, I talked to a guy who got his Health card that very same day. He showed me his LAMINATED SS card. He saw a different clerk.Go Figure. We ended up going (at 80mph) to the Tam card place. When we got home at 8pm, Robert, Joy and one of their friends greeted us with a busted PC, so I fixed it. At 10pm, Becky and I went to Walmart to get work clothes. We just got done....Pheweeee!!! I need a race car!!!

Thursday, April 01, 2004 at 11:05:35 (PST) <Jim Cutlar>
Well, as it turns out, Becky looks good for a waitress job at Blue Ox. It really pays to drink at Vegas bars. Yesterday, I introduced Becky and my brother to Steve. He's the Blue Ox owner's right hand man. I'd have to bet that Becky, Skip and I will be running all over today and tommorrow getting Health Cards, TAMs Cards(Techniques of Alcohol Management) and possibly Sheriffs Cards. To work at a Vegas bar, you need at a minimum, these cards. But as everyone here knows, it's all about the FEES you pay. It has very little to do with making Vegas a better place.

Thursday, April 01, 2004 at 10:55:37 (PST) <Jim Cutlar>
I dreamt Sonny was in a fire at the Frontier...turns out he was!!! I must have heard about the fire on the news last night while someone was talking to me. Sometimes I think the subconscious absorbs everything around us, just to play it back in REM sleep.