I pride my self on my ability to fix just about anything.
Well, I've messed up the diagnostic reasoning on myself.
Diagnosing any problem, should include the primary question: What changed?
I assumed the following:
- I was breathing poorly when I left Las Vegas
- It cleared up in Orlando
- I'm breathing poorly now.
- Hence, Vegas must be the problem.
I forgot a few variables.
- I barely drank in Orlando.
- We changed brands of cigarettes from Opal to Misty
My breathing problems began outside of Las Vegas, however, we switched to Opals in Laughlin.
My analysis of the problem is severly flawed.
I assumed have chronic bronchitis (fatal in 10 years), asthma, allergies to desert pollen and dust.
Stupid me, it could be the toxins in Opal cigarettes.
I know I should quit.
But I've been smoking since I was 15.
Why would it hit me like a ton of bricks, right after moving?
See, my logic has holes in it.

The explosion went up 300 feet, and burned throughout the next day.
They said the lightning came from 10 miles away.
The storm had winds of 70 MPH, and nickel sized hail.

 

I asked Renee "How long did it take to put the streaks in your hair?".
She said, "I don't know. Someone else did it".
\Later on, she said "Hey! I really like your purse, Mom".
Then she started taking everything out of it...
Then she was on the phone and asked me "What do you call a sheep's boss".
I said "A shepperd, like Chuck Shepperd, your old boyfriend?"
Blonde moments are fun.

She'll be 21.

Took Robert around the first part of the day.
Robert needed a ride to cash his check and deposit it in the bank.
Its seems they're always scraping the bottom of their piggy bank.
Ate soul food at a restaurant on Charleston and Valley View
I had ribs, Sonny had catfish, Becky had fried pork chops.
A little pricey, but, YUM!

I read up on it yesterday morning. Its awful!
So, some terrorists attack the US, and we lose our freedoms.
Is that the way it works? 
Our government now has the power to:
   See what your read at the library
   See what you do on the internet
   See all of your financial transactions
   See all wire transactions
   Search your possessions without a warrant
   Throw you in jail for an indefinite period of time
   Wiretap your phone and monitor your cell phone with a warrent.
All they have to do is say your an expected terrorist, and you are toast.
It sounds a lot like the McCarthy years, where all they had to do is say you are a communist to ruin your life.
The patriot act was a major step backwards for personal freedom.
Thank god that its various components are being challenged by the ACLU.

I'm going to contact Brian Grady (a realtor who I've done business with) about renting the condo.
But, this mission is two fold. I'm going to ask him about travelling notaries.
I'm considering a job in Columbus, Georgia that pays $90,000 a year.
A house there cost only $90,000.
The cost of living there is cheap, so most of the money I'd make would go into investments.
If I took it, I'm going to offer GMa and the kids a choice
Come with us, or stay behind.
"In custody disputes between a natural parent and a nonparent, the law presumes the best
interest of the child will be served when in the custody of the natural parent."
If I don't take it, I'll end up in a new career.
My options for employment are getting limited with my age.
If, after talking to Brian, I find out there's a good future in being a Travelling Notary, then
I'll try it here for awhile. If the money is good, I'm going to want to move for health reasons.
I suppose either way, there's going to be a showdown with your Mom.

I couldn't see Brian Grady either Monday or Tuesday.
My breathing is too labored.
It would be dumb for me to hit him up for work when I can barely speak a complete sentence.
Its a forkin sheety hello of a darned carpy beach!

Jealousy is typically used to describe the thoughts, feelings, and behaviors that occur when a person believes a valued relationship is being threatened by a rival.
Very possibly, no good has ever come from jealousy.
If a person is jealous of another, problems occur, possibly destroying the relationship in its entirety.
I believe jealousy is a very self destructive and foolish emotion.
So, why do people have the emotion? Insecurity in their relationship with another?
Hmmm.
Fathom this...if jealousy is foolish, and God is a jealous god
Then is God foolish.
The Bible it says, who so ever call another a fool, shall surely burn in hell.
So, does that mean, if I said God is foolish, that I'm going to hell for being logical.
If so, then logically, no one in school should learn logic.
LOL.

Mine was getting WAY long in the back. I kind of thought it looked cool...BUT the world is what it is, and if I'm going back to work, I'm going to have to play the part.
Becky, your hair looks great!

I got up, wide awake, and saw Robert online. His profile said, Don't Trust Anyone.
I asked him about it.
Robert said he was kicked out of GMas.
He'd gotten into an argument with her, or it sounds like she got into one with him.
It was about us. He said GMa was going to go after Becky for child support.
Apparently, we are wrecking her plans by not calling her and telling her we are here.
She wants to move into a condo with Paul and she wants to dump Becky's kids on us.
She's told us repeatedly she would never give up custody, so, she wants the money without the hastle.
Since Paul and GMa kicked Becky out, took her last check, kept her kids away from her,
and got Becky buried in Family Court (for greed and desire), neither one can be trusted as friends.
Becky even owes $250 to Family Court for one of the months the kids lived with us.
She owes thousands of dollars by now, to the State of Nevada for Safe Key.
To untangle that mess, it would cost us $5,000.
I think Paul and GMa can lay in the bed they made for themselves.
All that aside, Becky and I drove over to Roberts and brought him two jack stands.
Its always nice talking with Robert.
I apologized for our causing problems between him and GMa.
The last thing I want to do in this life is to cause problems. I am a fixer of things, not a problem causer.
The thing is, we haven't done anything to hurt anyone.
I'm saddened. Becky has cried for the lack of love and support she gets from GMa and her brother.
Dustin just called...wow

Where else in the world do you find crouds at midnight, on a rainy Monday!
Vegas is amazing!

It poured the other night and we were out in it.
We topped things off at the Rain Forest Cafe.

Romance
Smart man + smart woman = romance
Smart man + dumb woman = affair
Dumb man + smart woman = marriage
Dumb man + dumb woman = dumb baby
Office
Smart boss + smart employee = profit
Smart boss + dumb employee = production
Dumb boss + smart employee = boss's promotion
Dumb boss + dumb employee = overtime
Shopping
A man will pay $20 for a $10 item he needs.
A woman will pay $10 for a $20 item that she doesn't need.
General
A woman worries about the future until she gets a husband.
A man never worries about the future until he gets a wife.
A successful man is one who makes more money than his wife can spend.
A successful woman is one who can find such a man.
Happiness
To be happy with a man, you must understand him a lot and love him a little.
To be happy with a woman, you must love her a lot and not try to understand her at all.
Longevity
Married men live longer than single men do, but married men are a lot more willing to die.
Propensity to Change
A woman marries a man expecting he will change, but he doesn't
A man marries a woman expecting that she won't change, and she does.
Discussion
A man has the first word in any argument
A woman has the last.
How to stop people from bugging you about getting married
Old aunts used to come up to me at weddings, poking me in the ribs and cackling, telling me, "You're next."
They stopped after I started doing the same thing to them at funerals

If pro is opposite of con, then Congress is the opposite of progress
Friends don't let friends sleep with ugly people
Beauty is only a light switch away.
If life is a waste of time and time is a waste of life, then let's get wasted and have the time of our lives.
Fighting for peace is like screwing for virginity.
No matter how good she looks, some other guy is sick of her shit.
At the Ego Buffet, everyone is full of it.
It's hard to make a comeback when you haven't been anywhere.
If voting could really change things then it would be illegal.
No wonder you always go home alone. 

Why do people light their charcoal briquettes to BBQ here in the summer?
You don't need to light the briquettes, here, at all.
All you have to do is throw a couple of steaks on the hood of your car and they'll be well done in 5 minutes.
I may have to try that...haha.

Mr Weather say's its 109 outside, but my wireless thermometer majiggy says its more like 113.

He will be 83 years old.

Oops...he called and I didn't have it on my calendar. Whooops!!!

Clark County, NV is estimated to have 1.6 million residents, however, the census bureau must now poll its population on an on going basis, because of its rapid expansion.
Las Vegas is the largest US City founded in the 1900's, which is pretty cool.
That would mean that our sewage, water, yadayada, are all pretty much state-of-the-art as far as the country goes.
Yuck...lol.
I just took a census poll.
The agent was very friendly (coming from Illinois). He said, the Federal Government grants money based on population, and more or less, Las Vegas was getting screwed.

Sorry we got off on the wrong track somewhere along the line way back when.
You've always been my friend.
I've missed you.

Isn't that what they say to do?
Wouldn't it be great if we were all that stupid?

Reasonable prices and excellent food. I really liked the Thai beef salad. Yum.
Becky liked their salad...hehe.
That Atrium at Sam's Town is so special. Its so nice to go to a ittle fantasy world, and its only 10 minutes away.

Its pretty neat!!! It took less than 10 minutes to add it and implement it.
Its under Info | Calculator
Now, if I were still working with WIC for the government...It would have taken two weeks to do it...lol.
A fellow from the Census Bureau and I were talking about how badly the government gets screwed on things yesterday.
Everything I know about the WIC project is a scam. And I know about the trailers, the cash cards, and the companies involved.

I have that guilt to bear. But I'll make it up to them.
They are my favorite people.

I feel bad. Not only because I drank this holiday, but because my hangovers last for days and I shouldn't go anywhere.
I feel guilty. Because there's people who want my help, and I don't give it during this period, its simply too risky.
And, I suppose, I'll get drunk again 3 months from now, unless it finally sinks into my brain that those days are over.
Vegas makes partying too easy.
If its not the heat, its the attitude of this town.
One of the reasons I liked Florida...
was there wasn't people partying on every block. You had to drive miles just to find a bar.
The only places we saw people drinking outdoors was Disneyworld and Universal Studios.
It just wasn't that kind of town.
We'll be out of here by September. 
I just can't live here. Its too unhealthy.

Nobody else that I know has kept these kind of records of their life.
I started it all as a memorial to Rob...wow...has it been that long? I miss him.

He said Leavelle is now living in Dallas. Leavelle didn't tell me.

I've got a world. To me, this is everything I've ever wanted. It is my universe.

Life has been everything I wanted. I can't exactly go into it...but life is good!

We had a blast....I really don't care what other people did. We indulged on crab bisque, we enjoyed life to the fullest. I partied too much though. Whoops. That's twice in one month. I've got to watch out for that. It was fun to let go though.

We get a little bit closer...

The neighborhood rocked with what personality it has left. It was a lot of fun. Me...I'm hungover. I indulged myself.

Aint that the way it goes?
Damn...so sad. We may call. They'll respond as if it were a canned test. How are you? Okay. How's school? Okay. Do you have a boyfriend now? Kind of. Its all hearse. And we're in the middle of it.

Festivities begin with the traditional 7 a.m. Rotary Pancake Breakfast in Bicentennial Park.
The parade down Nevada Way begins at 9 a.m. and travels to Central Park at Fifth Street and Avenue B.
At 7 p.m. the entertainment begins and at 9 p.m. the Fireworks Show takes place.
After the fireworks, there will be more entertainment until 11 p.m

It was excellent. The sound stage was great. Christopher Cross and America were GREAT!
Neil Young even sang Horse with No Name. It couldn't have been more perfect.
AND...the fireworks display was completely awesome.
Becky and Sonny went off to get some refreshments and they didn't show back up for 30 minutes.
Becky's cell phone, as usual, wasn't working.

6pm James Seastrand Park, 6330 Camino Eldorado, North Las Vegas.
The 7th Annual Independence Day Jubilee will be held July 3, 2006 at Seastrand Park (6330 Camino Eldorado.) This year's event will feature a variety of food vendors, great music, kids activities including the only 15 ton Snow Mountain in July, along with give-aways and much more. This year's event will be from 6:00pm-9:30pm and is free to the public. Families are encouraged to come and enjoy the festivities

I am so proud of her. She did a GREAT job.

For example: I'd never guess that a whole box of raisins could fit inside my cd player slot.

That is just so sweet, Joy! How'd the song go?
Com'n people now! Smile on you brother...everybody lives together so gotta love one another right now.

We don't touch anything. If our atoms touched another atom, it would be castrophic.
Matter is a byproduct of Energy...I believe this is all a show for us.
Life is hard to explain. I've seen it in my mind, and thats where it will stay.
Within all of us, within every cell of our being, is the knowledge of life.
Why we aren't allowed access to it is a mystery to me.
Did you know, that the brain is responsible for most of the construction of our bodies when its forming.
Why doesn't our conscience have access to that knowledge?
:^)

I suppose that's some people's view of immortality...to leave distorted genes behind for future generations to copy.
I pondered that thought. The thought that having children could extend your life in some magical way.
However, I don't feel I am anyone but myself.
If I was an incorporation of my relatives, wouldn't I have memories of a their past stored somewhere in my sub conscience.
If so, I don't feel their influences, as far as I am aware of.
I know the universe is young...they say 8 billion years young.
And I know, it may last a trillion times longer than what we see.
So anything is possible. I believe in these possibilities: That we don't die. That we chose to be here for some reason.
It could just be whim. Or is that just a fantasy...a fantasy built within this fantasy.

We were talking about Revelations in the Bible. I mentioned how if you substitute nouns with other nouns, you could make any verse seem like any prediction. These are the tactics of con men. IE-Your preacher.
EG: Jack was the US. The Giant was Russia. The Beans were nuclear weapons. The stalk was communication.
SEE...it it all makes sense now.
He (the US) used the stalk (communcation), advertised the beans (nuclear weapons) and stopped the evil giant (Russia).
yayada...my point is...if you substitute words from an old prediction, you can make them match anything.
It's poetic bullshit.
My advice is, you follow your heart. You are a product of god, not vice versa. You were natures creation. Live with that.
We are neither supreme, or all encompasing.
We, our species is a step to some kind of perfect being...but, unfortunatly, its not us.
It would be great if we simply survive as a species and leave something behind, and not destroy the planet for the next million years.  Life always finds a way. If it isn't on this planet, it will be on another.
I'd rather life survives here.

I'd fight for causes
In the end, I'd drain the trust fund, and end up having my picture on TV for dying causes.
The greenhouse effect, people starving in Africa, missing children...that kind of thing.
These things are going to happen, no matter how much money you throw at them.
Human nature is just like that of any creature on this planet.
Including the 30 trillion cells that make you...you.
They all want to survive. They all have the desire to influence your behaviour.
There's obviously a group of cells in your brain that constitute your soul
Don't you think? All of the neurons report to that group...and they you are, forever changing..with every experience.
I know that is true for myself. I'm not the man I used to be. I'm always changing.
There's a deep message here if you read this and think about it.
I'm saying today...you are you.
Tommorrow, you are a different person.
It all makes you wonder what you've ever stood for, doesn't it. Your solid beliefs are different than what you they were 10 years ago. You've changed.
So, in that vision of Heaven you have, you should include how old you were.

We were talking about deviant behavior this morning.
It seems to me that deviant behavior happens with the most normal, fit-in kind of people.
I've slept with a lot of women. This is, after all, Las Vegas.
But I've noticed the most deviant behavior comes from the most seemingly innocent kind of girls.
The innocent have slept with animals, the animals (girls) have slept with few people.
If that ain't a paradox, I don't know what is.
Why is it, when we hop in bed with a stranger, we become multi-personalitied?
Is it an underlying force that motivates us? Is this motivation a self-destructive force? hmmm.
Me, I'm just me. I've slept with a lot of people and I don't hide it.
But, I've noticed with others, particularly those innocent housewives, they show a side of themselves that they hide from their spouses. In a sense, they've ripped off their husbands. They show strangers how satisfying they can be.
Its just a curious behavior that I've noticed in this town.

I just watched TV in the bedroom and on the big screen.
Living a life of leasure is just too easy. Everything becomes simple when you're not struggling.
I like it alot! It may not compare with other people's lives...but its very satisfying.
I didn't rent the condo out. I didn't read all the stuff I should have read. I didn't call anyone. I got self absorbed.
Forgive me lord for saying this, I enjoyed squandering my life today. It is addictive.
I've found I don't always have a purpose and its heaven to me when I don't.
When I die, I hope things will be like this (having purpose, then having none).